I mean... loving people for Jesus and then, because of Jesus you are sent to a new flock. Then, while growing in love for your new flock your pastoral/shepherd heart is tugged by the weight of so many lambs for whom you deeply care.
Maybe I can express myself better.
I realized this week that I was homesick yet, at first, I could not figure out what or for whom I was longing.
Only after I heard sad health news about one of my previous sheep, did a realization hit me like the whack of a shepherd's staff to the head! I am homesick for my previous flock.
This awareness has little to do with how loving and amazing my new flock is (and they are wonderful people/sheep! So proud of them!). Rather, this realization tells me something about my shepherd's heart. I am missing my sheep...just as they knew me; I knew them. I wonder about them. Worry with them. Pray for them. Think about them.
And I just .... miss them.
Miss them because I love them.
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